Well it has been a rough year and i for one am glad that it is over.  There was good and bad from 2008  but mostly bad.  Relationships were off the charts that year...i never heard of women that didn't wanna commit until 2008.  What  i did learn tho is i can make any type of girl happy and i think that will carry along way but i digress.  For me 2008 was a great year for music and i branched off officially in 2008 to all types of music and i now hold no boundaries.  Now from kanye west to T.I. to janet jackson to maroon 5 to fall out boy and so on and so on it was a great year from that aspect.  We also had our first black president elect and discorvred (once again) how fake jesse jackson is.  For him to wanna cut off Obama's nutz to crying when he one the election...THAT is a funny guy but for the wrong reasons.  The happiest guy in 08' had to be pres bush.  Nobody paid attention to what he did once Obama got elected so he got to relax and all he had to do is dodge a shoe thrown at him...HA.  Even though 2008 wasn't good for me relationship wise i would still say (mainly because of music) that 2008 was not a bad year.  Yea i know i know there are other things that went on last year but i don't feel like tackling those things i think i'll stop here.  It's been a while since i blogged so i figrured i would get one in this year and my next blog should be women what are they good for??? Get ready for controversy in 2009!!!!!!!!!!! 

Well once again i see a relationship come to an end and was it my fault...maybe.  I knew what i was getting into cuz she said up front she wasn't ready for a committed relationship.  Then she seemed to be changing her mind because she actually decided to get with me.  Man i worked hard to keep her happy and she was very happy and i was her sweetest b/f.  We also got along very well and conversed well but guess what she still wasn't ready for a committed relationship.  HA man did i see it coming.  I tried to be optimistic that things were too good to give up but even with that it wasn't enough.  Well what can i do it's her lost?? I still feel like i lost because i really liked her and thought we could work and we could of...if she was ready.  I just kinda wish that we never hooked up because i didn't want to like her anymore than i did.  I mean i'm not crying or very angry but i am pissed.  I guess my theroy was right that women just like to fool around or want someboy to treat them wrong until they get fed up and then they want to move on to mr right.  Well guess what that's not how mr right operates.  I am human and i have feelings and the way she felt back then just never change so why even start....i wonder.  Well i prob won't get much sleep tongiht but i have no choice but to move on.  I know one day i'll find a girl that is ready to be swept off her feet because that's all i really ask from a woman....everything esle i got in check.  It's a shame because i really really liked her but i know from experience you can't force someone to be with you so i had to let her go.  If she don't want me i won't make her stay because the girl i marry will want me...bad.  Good guys always finish last but i sure do hope it's  true that we get the last laugh cuz right now i'm not laughing....

what makes a good friend??  A friend is someone who you can always depend on and is there when you need them.  In my generation it seems to be hard to find good friends and even the good ones eventually fade away.  I have had close friends in the past yes but once we parted because of school they usually became different people or we just never kept up with one another.  Me...i am still the same i have always been i am still a perfect square...no partyin, drinkin, smoking...i live a very straight edge life.  Since these things seem to be what most people i know seem to find "fun" i find it hard to keep close friends.  Maybe it's me maybe i'm just being to close-minded.  I mean i have no problem making friends it's just a matter of who is a real friend and who is just another...Sometimes one even appears to be a friend but guess what when there true colors show they stab you in the back and have no remorse.  I remember having a close friend in high school who proved that to be on point.  Yes i was with his X but in my defense she had a b/f between me and him and he was with my X AND he got with her like right after we broke up.  I thought it would be cool if I did the same but how was i suppose to know he was in love with the girl??? WTF yall were together for like 3 months.  I don't believe in that love at first sight or immediatly knowing you are with ms/mr right.  I even had a g/f of 4 years who i thought was a good friend but i found out she was not being completly open with me even after all that time AND THEN tried to pin that shit on me.  Anyways i digress...As i am finishing college i know look back and see the lost friends.  I know i still have some good ones but it always seems like the best ones are the hardest to keep.  From my prespective they usually move or we no longer keep in touch but either way we no longer chill.  I guess that is why i am a homebody.  Even when i see other people hang with there close friends they still talk about them behind there backs and some even go behind there backs to sleep with there friends mate....AND they work DAM hard to get that pussy/dick.  I guess it's really just down to luck...good luck world...